changes.

am i changing that fast?

just this moment i got so angry at Akira that i ran to the kitchen, grabbed a knife, and threatened to stab him. just threatened. then he said, "you've changed a lot, Rani. it's like you're copying the actions of people on TV. they're right. once you become a teenager, you change."

okay. why did i do that? it's like this. as i was finishing my post "School Tasks", he approached me and said, "Rani, i don't have load." and i was like, "okay?" and he said, "but i need load to join the contest!" by contest, he meant the Chowder contest. he's so obsessed with cartoons that he want to join the contest badly. i replied, "what do you EXPECT me to do, send you load? i don't have load too!" but before i finish my sentence, he ran off, shouting like hell. i got so pissed off because it's so loud. so i shouted, "SHUT UP!" he just mimicked me.

then i had enough. he's the reason why we're going back to school later this afternoon. he's the reason why i'm not rewarded for all the hardwork that i've done. he's the reason why almost every PBA fan in his batch thinks that i like Cyrus Baguio. overall, he's the reason of my misery. hence, the act.

i don't know. i love my brother, but sometimes he's just some sort of a hellhole. like, some demon who came here to earth in the form of a talkative annoying person who, incidentally, is my brother. i don't want to torture him. i just think now is the time for payback. but not in the form of stabbing him.

could somebody help me? i don't want this life... i want to live in peace, love, and harmony. and of course, frequent trips to the Araneta.

HELP!!! ;((